growing as a person can be both scary and rewarding. the changes in your life both negative and positive occur in order to shape you into a more mature being. don’t take any relationship, friendship or acquaintance for granted…they’re there for a reason.
#afternoon.thought
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You know that feeling you get when you find old reminents from the past? Pictures of an old love or two, photos of yourself that by just a couple years make you look like an entirely different person. I just found a box with some old documents. Old school assignments, a couple of nicknacks that had been stored away. I feel like that person is non-existent today. I hardly recognized that part of my life because of the many changes that have occured since then…sometimes I wish I could go back, just for a couple of minutes and relive all of those moments…then carry on and do a few things differently…I’ve had a hard time lately accepting where I’m at in life. What I’m doing, who I’m associating myself with…I honestly don’t know how I could have done anything differently or even how I could have known what was happening as I made big life decisions…big changes. I know that God is the ultimate planner here…I may not know whats going on all the time, because essentially I’m not the one in charge. I’ve always liked surprises growing up so this is pretty appropriate, but some surprises I wish He would have given to someone else…
Sidenote, is it a conspiracy that while looking through an old Agenda I noticed that one of my ex’s has the same birthday as the guy I’m “kinda” seeing? This came off as odd to me, because I always thought those two were similar in personality…low and behold they were born on the same day in the same year…ugh, my life.
My hope out of this random rant is that I can find peace with myself today, tomorrow and however much longer God lets me stay in this place. I definitely cannot change the past and I can’t change the heart of someone who won’t accept my love. There’s no going back, just moving forward. Someday my thoughts won’t be haunted by the things of my past and I can learn to be happy again. Genuinely, honestly, happy.
That is my hope,
K
True Love :)
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Lastnight I had a dream that hundreds of people took 24 hours out if their day to support victims of hurricanes and floods. They went to the nearest lake with tables, chairs, food, blankets and tried to survive out in the water. everyone worked together in trying to help clean out the damage and it was a great movement. after those 24 hours, people had the heart to go to real areas where flooding is a normal natural disaster and they helped people whose lives had been shaken.
Another dream I had was really strange…it was placed in the future and water was scarce. it was against the law to use it for your excretions, to shave, to bath, even to drink. everyone was given their weekly portion and they had to use it sparingly.
one other that I can remember is the one with shark hunters. they took live people, put them in a crate and lured the sharks in. then they would throw out the people for them to fend for themselves…
these water dreams were both entertaining but they also made me nervous. some were very scary and I had to wake myself up…but as long as I can remember my dreams have always been vivid…clear as day
keep dreaming
Sometimes I feel like I’m living on cloud 9….but it’s only when memories haunt me and make me wish they weren’t memories but ongoing events…i pray that I can release the past and think positively about it so that I don’t miss out on moments happening today…I would hate to look back on the present and and wish I could relive these memories…
that is my hope,
Kayla
truth spoken.
